Sunday, October 23, 2016

Three Years at Cornerstone

Three years ago I left education to support families living with autism. What an amazing journey it's been so far! And it seems like it can't possibly be three years already. I realized that I'm still teaching and mentoring, but in a different capacity.
There have been parents who couldn't afford diapers; I've shared that diapers are free to kids with a disability, through Medicaid. I learned this from another mom at the center shortly after starting.
There have been families who've struggled to afford therapy. I've shared that they should sign up for the Waiver, which will give them Medicaid, which can help with copays and deductibles. I learned this from working at the center.
There have been parents who asked if they caused their child to have autism. I've explained that they did not, and assured them that they're good parents.
There have been more than a few parents who told me they haven't told their family about their child's autism diagnosis, because it is a taboo in their culture. They would be shunned. I told them I was sorry that they had to experience that, and that they could lean on the other families at the center for support if needed. I've created closed Facebook groups for them to communicate with each other, share ideas and ask for help in a safe environment.
Parents have cried after meetings and hugged me, expressing that they've never received so much (or any) support.
There is so much more. So much. When I started there were about 60 kids at our two centers. There are now around 125 at three centers. The growth has brought more learning, more experiences, more memories.
It has been such a gift to serve others in this capacity, to give back and help others as I was once helped when I was new to this world. I'm so grateful that Cornerstone's owners saw something in me, and saw a need that could be filled. It's been such a blessing to be a part of this company for three years and I look forward to more to come.

Monday, October 10, 2016

Flashback: October 10, 2012

'Rylie, can you clean up? Put your shoes away please.' Rylie looked around, saw the shoes, picked them up, and went in the other room to put them with the other shoes. She's 21 months old and I've never asked her to do that before. I didn't expect her to be listening, or to know where the shoes go. That's because of what happens when I ask Hayden to put his shoes away:
Hayden, put your shoes away please. (not listening) Hey, Hayden. (twirling his socks) Hayden, are you listening? (no response) I get on his level, look in his eyes. Hayden, can you put your shoes away please? "I can't. I don't know where it goes." They go by the front door. "Where? I don't know. I can't do it." He's not really listening still. 'Come with me. See? Right here. Go back and get your shoes and put them with these.' He goes back to the shoes, but gets distracted and sits down and starts picking at a loose string on his sock. 'Hayden.' No response. 'Hayden did you put your shoes away yet?' No response. Go back, get on his level, ask him to put the shoes away. He snaps back into focus, grabs the shoes, and puts them away.
This is how my day goes. I brush his teeth for him because he has frozen holding his toothbrush in his mouth; get him dressed in the morning so we're not late because I've already asked him to get dressed 15 times and he's still sitting there in his underwear; I remind him to eat the food that's sitting right in front of him at dinner. Being my first child, I didn't know children as young as 21 months could understand and respond appropriately on the first request. Every time I ask Rylie a question and she answers me the first time I ask (and not the 25th), I'm surprised.
What a beautiful gift God gave me, to experience Hayden's worldview first, to let me understand how children with Autism think [to me, his way of thinking is "normal," her way of thinking is a pleasant surprise]. And then to experience Rylie's worldview next, to know that God made us all different so that we can fill in the gaps for others when it's our strength, knowing the favor will someday be returned. I will always need to help Hayden, but he has already helped (and changed) me.

Tuesday, September 6, 2016

Updates with the move

Hayden has had a pretty good weekend despite the move. There was a minor tantrum or two at home where he locked himself in his room. I can't recall what he was mad about. He's been struggling with Rylie this week, as far as not liking her crying or having to share time with me. But, he did really well yesterday sharing his Wii U game with her, teaching her how to play and not taking over. This is something he's struggled with in the past. Both kids are loving the new house and enjoying the extra space. We're excited once we get unpacked to have a chance to get outside and explore the new neighborhood.

Random aside:  This week Hayden has been asking about bullies. How to avoid a bully, does being a 'nerd' or smart make him a target, and his reaction if someone were to bully him. His answer was that he would "make them regret it" by yelling and attacking them. Not the reaction we're looking for. :) 

We are so grateful to grandma and grandpa for watching the kids for two days while we got settled. Thanks for making things a lot easier!  

Saturday, July 30, 2016


We are excited to be moving to a new school district for this next school year. Last year went pretty well for Hayden, but the year prior was extremely difficult for us as a family. I only alluded to it on this blog for multiple reasons.

For one, I wrote a blog post that the school asked me to take down, by way of my lawyer. Included in that post was a statement that read something like, "They managed to drag it out for a year, but we finally have an agreement on our due process." Due process means taking the school before a judge, to decide if they are in the wrong.

I amended the post rather than take it down. You can view it here.  I suppose the wording was probably incorrect, though that surely wasn't what they took issue with. The school didn't drag out the due process for a year, just the requests that I was making, including that he have a behavior plan, something that is required by law. That was definitely dragged out, in fact for about two years, if not more. But I'll explain that another day.

Going over documents the night before an IEP meeting with my super supportive husband.

For two, the school district retaliated against our family. Retaliation refers to some form of discrimination, coercion, intimidation or threat. You can learn more about retaliation and parent rights here. I will tell that full story another day, as well. It was very painful but the story needs to be told.

I don't plan to name the school. I don't need to. It's not about pointing fingers so much as educating the public. I have always wanted this blog to be about positivity and the sharing of information and ideas. There are so many things that parents of special needs kids don't talk about, or can't talk about, because of pressure from others. When my son was left on the bus, I couldn't share the story at the time. I was able to a few years later; you can read about it here. I shared it because I want others to be aware that these things can and do happen, and that there are things you can do to try to prevent them, and actions to take when they do unfortunately happen. It was an important story that needed to be told. The story of our due process experience is important as well. And as I process through what to share and how to share it, I will.

Rylie at baseball this summer.

The moral of both stories is that kids with special needs need to have advocates. Parents are unaware of laws that are out there to protect them. It is a goal of mine to share information for other parents to know what they can do, what they NEED to do, to protect their own children. The Wrightslaw website is a great place to start.

The kids on Hayden's birthday.

Children with special needs should not be seen as a burden to public schools, or as objects to be placed in one box or another. They are human beings who deserve to go to school and be treated with respect and kindness, just like any other child. This is all I ever wanted for my children. I didn't go searching for a fight.

And to clarify, none of this has been about the individual teachers working with my child. For the most part we have been lucky to have teachers who truly care about kids and only want the best for them. This entire process and the problems we've encountered have been at a level above the teachers themselves, mostly at the district level. His previous special education teacher was very kind and understanding, and has been a great help in Hayden's transition to a new school.

Take my picture mom! It's too small!

School starts next week, and I couldn't be more excited. Hayden's new special education teacher has already reached out to us and is more than willing to support his needs. I know he is in for a good year and I can't wait to share more about it with you. He works really hard and deserves to be in a place that does right by kids with special needs.

I told my husband the other day that I was trying to be brave, and he said that I'm not brave, I'm strong. I know that's because of the things I've experienced, and the attitude I've taken toward overcoming. I want not only to overcome, but also to lead those who have been in my shoes to become stronger themselves. I hope this blog inspires each of you spread your wings and soar.

Friday, June 3, 2016

Friday FUA: His IEP Draft

Statements from Hayden's teachers in his most recent IEP draft:  

Hayden is polite, caring, conscientious, and hard working. He enjoys interacting with his peers and adults. He earns good grades.

Hayden stays in the classroom and struggles with focusing and frustration when things do not go as expected.

Hayden participates in the 3rd grade general education curriculum. He shows good academic strengths.

Hayden manages his student role well with the Instructional Assistant. He does still become frustrated at times.

His social skills are very good as well. He interacts with friends and uses appropriate conversational exchanges. For the most part, he is a typical 3rd grade student.

Hayden will participate in the appropriate grade level state assessments. He is at or above grade level. It is fully anticipated that Hayden will obtain a high school diploma.

LRE Placement Category based on Federal Program Types: 50: General education classroom (In a general education classroom for 80% or more of the day)

Reasons for provisions and reasons for rejecting other options: 
Hayden has been successful in the general education setting with support from a Special Education Staff Member. This is his least restrictive environment. He is accessing the general education curriculum and doing very well socially, behaviorally, and academically. Spending more time in the special education resource room would be more restrictive and not meet the needs of Hayden at this time.

Photo:  Hayden and his friends on a recent field trip downtown.